Long time no post. . .

So it has been awhile since I last typed up was has been going on in my head. It's been over a year since mom passed away and my goals that I made are almost met. This week is finals week for my third quarter at RTC for my Medical Assistant degree. One more quarter to go and a huge exam to take and I will be a CMA. I want to work in Oncology but in order to do all what I want to do there I need to be a nurse. I found out that I will not be elegible for any more grants since I have used up all what they award a person for 6 years. Thats ok, I'll work hard for a few years then go back to school for my nursing degree. Mom would of been so proud. I want to be able to give my daughter the best. I'm tired of working hard for so little money that I have to not eat so Tabitha can get everything she  needs. I want to be able to support us both with no problems at all. It sucks to live day by day but i do it in hopes that one day things will change and all my hard work will amount to something.

Tabitha starts kindergarten in September. She is growing up way to fast for me.  I miss my itty bitty who needed me more. She has gotten so independant. I just wish she would listen more, like when it comes to cleaning her room or doing what she is told. I still have to chase her down to comb her hair. One should see us when I have to wash her hair. She acts like I'm trying to drowned her in the tub. She hates water going over her head. I have a huge surprise for my baby girl on her first day of school. She also will be going to day camp next week to prepare her for her class. She qualifies for all day kindergarten since I was not able to afford to have her gor to pre-school. She also quailifies for a grant to pay for it since I don't make alot. $550 every two weeks does not go far when bills have to be paid. One day, one day I will be able to afford the things she deserves.

Tabitha wants to live in a house and with how much rent is, a house payment would be cheaper. So I will look for a house once I have a job as an MA.

Well enough for now, Tabitha wants me to pay attention to The Super Hero Squad with her.

I Miss Her Today

So I'm taking an online English class and I have to write an essay on something I learned. So I am writing about my mom and how I learned not take anyone for granted anymore. I miss her so much right now. I'm about to break down and cry. This is all I can say right now since I don't want to cry and if I continue I will break down.




I MISS YOU MOM!!!

My Angel!!!

My mother passed away on March 11, 2011. She is now my angel who watches over my family. I miss her dearly. Mother's Day will be tough. Christmas will be tougher since that was mom's favorite time of year. I'm sad a lot and angry a lot. Let's just say I'm very moody. Dave has been very supportive of my mood swings.

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MOTHER!!!