Crashing down

So I feel like the world is crashing down on me and all I have is an umbrella that is about to break to keep me from completely breaking down.  I feel like pretty soon all it is gonna take is one last thing to go wrong, no matter how big or small and I'm done.  I just would like things to run smoothly for me, at least for a little while.  But now I feel that karma is getting back at me like there is no tomorrow for being such a horrible person growing up. 

This is how I felt a few days ago but NOW I feel good.  I decided to go back to school for Medical Assistant and then Anesthesia Technician and Renton Technical college.  I would have to say I decided this all due to my mother and what she is going through.  I’ve been curious and now it has peeked my interest to the point where I am “OMG I WANNA DO THAT!!!”.  Dave is supporting me 100% since I will be quitting my job.  Tabi will be going to their daycare, which would be great for her.  She’ll be around other kids and see that they are potty trained and hopefully she’ll wanna be like them and be potty trained.

OMG I AM SOOO HUNGRY!!!

I’m starting to think that I won’t be able to go to school and not work.  Money will be very tight and I don’t know if we can handle it.  It would be easier if I has some sort of savings that could help us while I am in school but I don’t.  It just seems whenever I get really excited over something and I mean REALLY excited, something comes to crash it down and I get sad.  But I do have to be on a waiting list, so maybe things will look up by the time school starts.  I shouldn’t let this bump stop me from trying to be a better person, a better mom, a better human for society.  I can build up whatever extra I have from a paycheck and not touch it.  Which means I may have to give up going out and buying those little extras I love so much.  If I really want this then I should try to make it work. 


Yes, I will make this work. Not just for me but for my lil one.

Tyler Hilton and Josiah Leming show

On Tuesday October 12, 2010 two sisters went into Seattle for a show at the Showbox Sodo.  They went to forget for a few hours how miserable they were since their mother got sick.  Thanks to the awesome performances that night they were able to forget and have fun.

I'm not really good with words to write an awesome review of the show but this is what I thought.

Josiah Leming and Tyler Hilton were playing.  My sister and I went to see Tyler Hilton.  The show was small and intimate. They had two opening acts Thomas Starks and Dion Roy.  Thomas Starks gave a wonderful performance to which I now follow on Twitter and became a fan of his Facebook page.  To be honest I did not see Dion Roy's performance. 

I go up to stand next to my sister by the stage and this little skinny blonde hair kid starts playing the keyboard and singing. I have to admit the kid was great.  Turns out that kid was Josiah Leming and he was on American Idol 7.  The kid was energetic and has more talent then some I see get huge fast (like that Beiber kid).  I was very impressed with his performance that I bought a cd and he signed it for me.

Tyler came on stage and to be honest, he is a lot taller then I thought he was. I seen him on One Tree Hill playing Chris Keller.  Which after we already got into Seattle I was like, "Darn it, I should of brought my OTH season 4 sleeve that has a pic of him that awesome getup in the prom episode."  Anyways, he played one of my fav songs Missing You and my other fave song When Stars Go Blue as an encore.  We loved that he talked to us on stage and asked what we wanted to here.  IT was great that he almost forgot to play one of his songs June.  Two lovely ladies helped him out with that one.  It was cool that hung out after his performance and signed autographs and took pictures.

My sister and I had a great time.  We had a couple drinks at the bar and watched some good performances.  We were able to forget about mom and her cancer for a few hours.  I also was able to forget everything that was bugging me, till the next morning of course.  Usually I'm at metal shows and watching local metal bands play at Hell's Kitchen in Tacoma.  So when a non-metal performance catches my eye, it must be good or at least it is good to me.

Josiah Leming and I

 

 Tyler Hilton and I

Thanks guys for a great show in Seattle.

Tired yet Excited

So I closed at work last night at 11pm and open today at 7am.  Barely slept and had to cut short my time to get ready for work to run to the store cause the lil one was out of milk and lunches and didn't find out till the morning. 

So needless to say I am tired.  But tonight is an exciting night for my sister and I.  We are going to see Tyler Hilton (no relation to the Hiltons btw) play at The Showbox SODO tonight.  He is not metal but I do looove his voice.  Reminds me of a mix of Cash and Presley.  Check him, he's good.  Thank goddess I have Wednesday and Thursday off of work. 

Thursday I'm going to visit my friend Missa.  I better be there or she can disown me.  I've been wanting to hang with her but every chance I get I flake on her and I haven't seen her since 2004.  So I HAVE to see her on Thursday.  So Wednesday I'm gonna clean, clean and more cleaning at home.  Gonna get in my grubby cleaning clothes and clean.

Still trying to figure out what I shall wear tonight in my head.  Should I be comfy? Should I look cute? Decisions decisions.

Man I am so happy for spell checker.  I'm not the greatest speller when I am tired or too focused or when when I'm typing as fast as my thoughts are there.

Thats it for now on this post.  Just me rambling.